I need to stay focused.
I need to stop eating.
I need a slim face and a flat stomach.
I need bony hands and more defined collarbones.
I need pretty chest bones and a big thigh gap.
If I can’t be pretty
I can be skinny.
If I can’t control anything in my life
I can control what comes in my mouth.
that’s not even a desire anymore.
that’s a need.

